Resolution: Reorganising Things and Looking for the Solutions

Hello!
Still, it's not too late for me to wish myself and everybody a happy new year and welcome 2015. As stated in my previous post on the ups and downs of my 2014... I am pretty sure everybody has their own experience kan?

So, what is your resolution?  to me.. resolution is more towards organising things from what to be prioritised from the most important and least important.... and yes, once when it's organised, we gotta look for solutions and alternatives to make it work kan? :D

2015

• Earlier part of the year, I have to work hard to find part time jobs to cover my expenses. Currently, i'm now at my third trimester of pregnancy and it's quite impossible for people to hire pregnant lady, especially when they have reached their third trimester. Kind of susah. Right? Lagi lagi bila pikir balik how the previous company had treated me.. MashaaAllah, ngeri!
• March, the little one will be in my arms - InshaaAllah, If he really follow the cycles of 40 weeks of pregnancy, the baby is expected to arrive and meet everyone on the 21st March 2015. Seriously, not that far from now you see :)
• I want to stay focus on my responsibilities as a wife, daughter, sister and a friend. I know i have not much time but the considerations on things to be prioritised take place here.. and yes, added to another responsibility --> being a mom!
• To commit seriously in my masters education... this is no kidding... i've worked hard and committed in my second semester, thinking about how much I messed things up during my first semester... Frankly, I started to feel the good vibes, with the help and cooperation with fellow friends. 
• Well, basically I want  to just work hard to get my dream career, to work in one of the local institutions as a lecturer and keep my mouth shut.. boleh? :)
• Of course, to be a better muslimah :) sama sama la kita belajar ok? 

Well, that's about mine... what about yours? Remember, organise, and look for solutions and aternatives --> that's make resolutions be motivation :D 

Smile Smile Goat (Part I)

Hi....
Have you heard the Malay sayings of "Senyum Senyum Kambing" ? Ha... me myself pun tak pernah la pulak nak perhatikan seekor kambing senyum macam mana sedangkan muka dia bagi i memang 'toya' memanjang...

Anyway, this post is not regarding me describing how does a goat smile and even what are the steps that one needed to smile like a goat. No!!!!!! this is not about it... but this is related to what's happening around us... how we perceive things... okay, i will give examples di bawah yang akan membawa kepada senyum senyum kambing...


Situation 1: 
Kiah : Eh, cantiknya handbag kau Mon!
Maimon : Eh, thank you. Ala, you pun boleh beli la dear.
Kiah : I ni mana la ada duit... 

*beberapa bulan kemudian*

Maimon : Wah. Kiah. Ni bag baru ni. Latest design baru ni. 
Kiah : Eh, biasa je la. Lagipun i mana ada duit nak beli mahal mahal 

--> Dalam situasi ni, Kiah propa sangat sebab bag dia sebenarnya lebih mahal dari Maimon.. jadi situasi "Takde duit laa" tu benda yang sangat common.. memang kau takde duit la sangat, tapi berjoli sakan, beli bag baru. beli baju raya va va voom.. hado pulak kan?  


Situation 2
Gayah : Jom teman aku tengok wayang nak?
Limah : Eh, katanya kau nak keluar dengan Leman?
Gayah : Ah, nyampah la. Asyik berkepit denqgan Markonah je. Kita ni dia lupa kan. 
Limah: Aik? Jealous pulak? Sejak bila tau jealous? Kata takde perasaaan kat Leman? *garu kepala jap*
Gayah : Ape kau cakap ni labu? Aku dengan Leman tu kawan je lah... Si Markonah tu yang tergedik gedik macam ulat beluncas... sibuk nak kat Leman!
Limah: Ye ke? Kau ni kalu ye pun tanya la dulu.. tak baik tuduh tuduh.. buatnya besok kau tau perkara sebenar baru kau tau. 
Gayah: Eleh, kalau dah rapat cenggitu kan ke ada something? sudah la, tak payah nak sejukkan hati aku... dah la, malas nak sebut nama  Markonah tu... menyirap!

*Setahun kemudian*

Limah jenjalan kat one of the va va voom shopping mall kat kay elle, ternampak la si Gayah dengan Markonah. 

Limah: Gayahhh.. buat apa kat sini?
Gayah ; Eh, Limah. errr... takde, saje je teman Markonah shopping.. kebetulan kami tak kerja hari ni.. hihihi 

--> So sekarang ni macamana? pernah tak dengar orang cakap... tak elok benci benci, nanti sayang....ingat lah ye, barangkali benda yang kita tidak suka boleh jadi barang yang terbaik dalam hidup kita... laaaaa ni, bukan barang je.. orang pun leh pakai konsep sama... faham ka? jadi toksah nak benci bagai la nokkk 


Situation 3 
Leha : I olls happy sangat sebab laki I olls bawak I olls pergi makan kat Tomato you olls!
Jah : Ha? Tomato? Kat ne tu?
Leha : ala..kat Va Va Voom Mall... sedap sangat tau... pergi la makan sana!
Jah : kau tu senang la cakap...aku mana reti.. aku orang kampung.... 


--> Ni la perangai masa kini orang melayu... suka benaw pakai ayat "Aku orang kampung" tu.. so the very one you know! Zaman sekarang ni, jangan la nak fe feeling kampung sangat.... siapa kata orang kampung tak boleh makan tempat mahal mahal? InshaaAllah, kalau dah tertulis rezeki tu, pasti ada... ni semua kat tangan Yang Maha Esa... so, statement 'aku orang kampung' tu dah boleh campak... sebab ramai je orang kampung berjaya dan tak mundur... blerghhh


Situation  4
Isteri: Bang, nanti balik tolong belikan sikit buah ye. 
Suami: Buah apa lak? 
Isteri: apa apa yang best la... rasa macam panas pulak hari ni...

*bila suami sampai rumah*

Isteri: Lahhh...apa abang beli ni ?
Suami: buah la...awak kata awak nak buah?
Isteri: Abang ni... saya nak buah pear.. kenapa beli apple?
Suami: Awak ni.... kang buat apple tu jugak jadi accessories tudung awak.. baru je tadi kata apa apa yang best... saya beli la buah apple..apple pun best apa? tu yang awak pakai macbook. ipad la bagai... kan ke apple tu?

--> Ha... ni lagi satu lah masalah normal suami isteri.... wahai isteri isteri semua (termasuklah diriku), oh juga kepada kawan kawan yang belum berumah tangga, tolong lah fahami bahawasanya golongan suami sangat lurus.... jangan kata buah, kalau kita kata beli daun pandan, boleh jadi sebab tak tahu banyak mana...satu pokok dia bagi... pakej sekali lah dengan kerengga semua.. haha :)


Jadi.. I rasa buat masa ni cukup la some situations yang sebenarnya memang boleh buat kita senyum sorang sorang... do u guys have any experience on this?

Well, happy reading and I just can't wait to update more *ok, aku tau ayat aku macam basi :)*

What You Actually Need To Feel

Ahlan Wasahlan!
It's 2.30 am! what???

As mentioned in the previous post, I have been doing much monologue session - thinking about many things...it could begin with the field that i'm in now when it comes to my career world, my responsibilities as woman, my situation in any zone that I could ever be.. seriously, where do I actually need to be now?

Sometimes, being a human this is basically a normal thing that you tend to be doing... REFLECT... yes, that's the verb that we're focusing here... in a way, I always have this habit of reflecting things... to make me aware and be stay conscious and focus to the exact intentions of doing so..

*nampak sangat Saka Omputih dah masuk sebab nak speaking gaban pepagi buta ni*

So, yes... reflect... kiranya recently I've been doing much reflection... thinking about have I did my best for my parents? for my husband? for my siblings? for my friends? for my company?

Yes, benda macam ni matters to me sebab I don't want to leave this world without accomplishing what I supposed to be doing.. Kelemahan? Yes semua orang ada kelemahan, and I tidak terkecuali.. begitu juga dengan diri ku yang banyak juga kelemahan...

Kita akan rasa gembira bila orang yang kita sayang gembira,

Kita turut bersedih bila orang yang kita sayang berduka,

Namun, siapa yang benar faham dengan perasaan kita yang sedang berduka lara?

Siapa yang dapat membaca isi hati yang tidah pernah terluah pada sesiapa? 

Especially when you have tried your best - well at least you sendiri can tell that you went crazy and nuts in order to do things - but still, ada yang tak cukup... maybe sebab expectation orang?

Tapi sampai bila? Kenapa kita susah nak cakap no? Sesakit mana pun kita, kita tabah,,.. kalis peluru dengan segala tohmahan, cacian... tapi... soalannya, sampai bila?

Hingga kini, I have no idea about all the SHIPS that have been troubling one's life... Friendship? Relationship? Battle Ship? What are all these?

I don't have clearer view on what am I feeling now taking me to...  It hurts the most when we hear people say things that they barely know and see our effort, but at the end of the day - kita jugak ditujah... is this really fair?

Well, this has nothing to do with anyone... It's just that... referring to what I've been mentioning - always reflecting...

Serious, i'm sorry to all of you who have known me.. who think that I'm just a clown who makes people laugh and laugh together with you, but what makes me different than you right? I'm  a human.. I deserve respect as you deserve. I can be happy as you can. I am a dreamer as you are. So, what's the major difference now between us?

This post has nothing to do with other people, it's me. Again, I'm reflecting.


Don't you think reflection is good?

So.. what should I really feel now...

There are still THINGS that Annoy ME

Assalamualaikum and Hi Readers!
I have been gone for quite some time, tiba tiba rasa macam malas je nak bukak pc/laptop to type.. padahal ada macam macam cerita je nak share, it's just that sekarang ni rasa macam malas berlebihan...

Nyeh. biasa la.. being a woman, you cannot run from your emotional moment kan.. this is referring to THAT particular time of the month kan? :) Haih.... okay, here are some random things that I personally feel annoy me in some way. because I just feel like it's plain rude... hehe! Jadi, to all readers.. after you read this, tolong la reflect and think whether or not you feel the same way as I do? :)

1. Saya tak suka kalau I senyum kat orang, and then dia boleh besarkan bijik mata macam nak gaduh kan? Aiyo... tolong la.. Senyum, tak perlu kata apa apa! haih! 
2. Dalam Lift, bila kita dah ada dalam Lift, and then comes a new person and orang tu pulak expect kita yang tekan untuk dia, padahal tak cakap apa apa.. lepas tu tau tau je terus mendengus.. i was like? Dude, ada masalah ke? haihhh... Cakap la... Budi bahasa budaya kita kot!
3. Bila tengah cari parking kat shopping malls especially, kita ni dah la lambat *padan la muka kan, siapa suruh bangun lambat bagai*.. tengah cari parking, dia ada dua situation tau... First, bila kita dah ikut dia sampai kereta, dia dah letak barang semua, then dia masuk mall balik, tapi takde pun any sign language... haih! Second, bila kita nak masuk parking, tetibe kereta lain potong... amboih kau hengat ni cerita Fast and Furious ke hape haa?

Ahhhaaaa... itu saje la buat masa ni ye.. nanti kalau terlintas lagi, I will surely share with you...so, what say you guys? :D 

Duhai Nasib..

Assalamualaikum!
I'm back again for more rambles and rumbles for all my humble readers, now that's what we say riddles? eh? bukan daa....

Anyway, this morning... it's just not my kind of morning... that I am suddenly annoyed with things around me and how my morning started...

• First --> Haffby asked me: "Minyak kereta cukup tak?" dengan confident tahap lulus 10 A1 SPM, cakap "Yes"... 
• Second --> Masuk kereta and tengok minyak is one bar to empty... hado? hish... terpaksa la pergi Petrol Station.... Vroom Vroom Vruuuuuuuummmmmm
• Third --> Sampai petrol station, nak withdraw duit, tapi the ATM machine is out of service... terbaek di ladang... nasib baik ada extra cash... and yes, nak reload Touch N Go sekali.. but, the cashier said "Sorry la kak... sistem offline".. terbaekk wok!!
• Fourth --> Dah bayaw dah ni.. nak isi minyak... ahkak pun pergi la ke kereta Haffby balik..nak isi minyak la ni... dengan harapan "Aku awal ke ke tempat kerja hari ni...".. tekan punya tekan minyak, tapi tak kuar... hai? takkan la bayar 40 hengget untuk masukkan angin kat pam minyak ye tak? Dengan gigih nya jalan la balik ke cashier tu cakap dengan sopan "Dik... awat minyak tak keluaq? Dia dok segan ka nak kawan dengan kereta akak?".. Adik tu senyum dan jawap terus "Settle dah kak..".. Ok, aku senyum and terus isi minyak..here we go... Vrumm Vrummm Vevavummmmm......
• Fifth --> Sampai je sebelum MEX, tetibe ada Airport Limo ni dengan selamba nya masuk lane tengah tanpa bagi signal and apa lagi. hon kereta pun dirasmikan... pak cik tu boleh buat *dek* je and sambung nyanyi... Takpe, Yasmin ni penyabar orang nya... eh?
• Sixth --> Paling pantang sangat.... bila kita tengah beratuq kaw kaw masa jam, kereta celah je masuk lane, (sekali lagi tanpa signal), and masa tu kan rasa macam... amboih... mentang mentang bawak Nissan Murano, mu ingek ni jale mu ko? haih... 

Alhamdulillah and syukur sangat yang I'm able to arrive at my workplace safely.. tapi apa je boleh buat? Bawak banyak istighfar ajo lah...ye? :) 

Apa Ada Dengan Belog?

Hi. 

Well, bila boring boring dah tak tau nak Google apa, tiba tiba teringat pulak nak type nama sendiri dekat search box tu...hahaha... Bukan maksudnya nak berlagak, atau perasan famous, haha... please don't get me wrong.. It's just for fun kan! :D 

Anyway, look what I found here?

Blog lama i ols! mynnazizan.blogspot.com

Tumblr i yang dah berkulat rasanya! 

Haih, geli hati betul bila jumpa benda benda ni balik... rupanya ada blog lagi sebelum ini (*walaupun sebelum ni punya blog dah pun berkubur*)... so what does that mean? Am I born to be a blogger? Cewah, teringat pulak senikata lagu LadyGaga - My Mama told When I Was young, We are born Superstars.. Kau hado? 

Ahaks.. Tapi macam I cakap in my previous post, I love to write... though I know that there's error here and there.. tapi I just love to write and share... I know the fact that tak ramai pun baca my blog *masalahnya... ado ke? Macam nan hado je!* 

But I did this all for all the people around me, tak kisah la..husband, family members, friends and those who are always with me, or even for those who have put me through all the pains.. this is just for people who are related to me... and my world. :) 

The reason is that... you never know when will you leave the world... it could be tomorrow, the next 20 years or who knows lepas entry ni dah takde lagi kan? Ini semua, luar kuasa kita.. Allah je yang tau... 

Jadi, blog ni is for those who know me, who reads my blog - and can really imagine how I talk to them, how I share and how I express.. because this is me. this is how I share, I don't mind people assuming me being diva and perasan semua.. but ohmagad, people and assumptions? can they ever be apart? 

Kiranya tak sia sia la Mama dok paksa I buat karangan "Aktiviti Saya Pada Hari Ini" for like every afternoon since I'm 4 years old, but once I'm in primary school, it had to stop because of my commitment on other homework as well... But nevertheless, I can never be more thankful as Mom and Dad has develop the interest in me... 

I find that writing is more towards expressing rather than talking.. when you talk, yes you might share but sometimes there are things are best left unspoken, but perhaps best to be nicely written kan? :)

I would strongly suggest for those who are shy, or not much confident to communicate with others, let's just encourage them to express by writing.. but of course, not to get them have their own blog, tapi wajar sangat la kalau kita belikan buku comel comel *alahai, bak datang kat Daiso... RM5 je hokeh!*, and just ask them to write any simple sentences.... and you'll see that actually that they have sooo many things to say.. Oh ya, this is referring to younger kids... :) Well, you can ask my sister... during those days that we don't talk to each other much due to age gap, I got her to write.. and it all went good.. She started to share with me so many things and yes, we develop good communication up till today.. now she's more confident to talk and share with others... 

So, jangan la rasa macam orang ada blog ni saja nak carik publisiti murahan... there's always something that people want to share...as generally, sharing is caring.. :) jadi, ini semua bukan Poyo.. depending on your purposes. 

Just A Little Update

Salam Everybody!

So, how's your weekdays going along? Yayy? Nayy?
Hmm..what will happen when things go wrong? Will you scream your heart out? Will you make an angry troll face to everybody around you? Will you stomp your feet while your mouth looks like a very old Nenek Kebayan reading for spells?

Hmm.. i must say that things are pretty haywire these few days... But if i were to voice it out to Momma and bapak, definitely they will just say "You ah, complaining so much without direction! that's what we call life la... you think you're always on top ah?" nyeh, and when it comes to sharing with Haffby, definitely he'll go cuckoo and said "Sabar yang....ni semua dugaan"..

Oh my, it's not that I don't have the SABAR-ness to SABAR-ing myself, but sometimes when things go beyond our control, you'll go a bit cray cray that at times you'll feel like: -

1. Scream your heart out - as if that when you scream you have the potential like Mariah Carey punya vibrato kan! Padahal, kalau katak dengar pun lari hokeh!
2. Just feel like being alone - Masa ni bukan nak berlagak terror, but you know there's time when everything is not going right, you just want to turn LEFT, tapi tak kena jugak... So you just want to be by the corner there by yourself and just do nothing but to just be by yourself...ada kan kan kan kan??
3. Eat everything at once - Memang, masa ni la rasa macam nak makan the whole tub of Baskin Robbins, the whole flavours of Big Apple Donut and semua benda la.. kononnya nak release stress, memang la... lepastu gemok dah macam badak, still stress kan? Eeee. Never ending!

So you see, these are some of the things that I would want to do when my mood swings, or when things are just not at the right place, situation or etc. But I guess as I grow older, I just have to think smarter on what to be done when alarming situation says HI to me... the best way is of course, Zikir... 

I learned that whatever things that people put you through, whether intentionally or unintentionally, just forgive and move on... and Zikir... Allah knows best kan :) 

Pernah tak..?

Assalamualaikum,

first and foremost, kepada anda yang ada heart attack and also semput, I'm just going to inform that this post is mainly a long post. takde gambar bagai... so it's more towards a confession, okeh? Kalau lemah semangat... jangan dibaca... I tak kecik hati :p

Pernah tak rasa macam give up?

• Angkat jari kelingking kalau tak pernah please? Hmm.. have you felt that apa benda korang buat semua tak kena? Apa benda yang dicakap semua pun tak guna? And even bila u diamkan diri, orang kata tak membantu.. pernah kan kan kan kann? Haih... entah la, at this very moment.. I just feel like everything I buat seems tak kena... is it about time for me to move to a more higher comfort zone? (Bak kata our Malaysian Iron Lady -Tan Sri Rafidah Aziz- "You don't tell people to get out from the comfort zone as of course people won't move from their comfort zone, but encourage them to go to a more comfortable zone, which is to try higher" - 20/8/2013 @ Merdeka Leadership Series Talk in Suruhanjaya Sekuriti, Malaysia)

Pernah tak rasa macam diri korang yang paling L.O.S.E.R?

• Berbalik kepada yang atas tu kan... macam I cakap, bila rasa macam apa benda buat semua tak kena..serta merta diri tu rasa macam tak guna dah... there goes my life.. doomed gitu.. Why am I saying this? It's just because perhaps I think I've been doing things that I shouldn't do much..such as meratap ratap persahabatan yang dah longgar, memikirkan terlalu banyak tentang kadar lemak dalam badan, and of course kerisauan melanda tentang bila la daku akan dapat anak? Haih! sendiri sudah buat masalah, sendiri tanggung la dik non.. 

Pernah tak rasa macam nak lari jauh jauh dari semua orang?

• Ha..this is what I feel like doing now... Rasa macam nak pergi dekat bos and cakap "Bos, saya rasa saya nak cuti 2 bulan..pastu saya nak muhasabah diri".. Boleh? Of course.. boleh bla! Kengkadang, kalau la manusia ni ada sistem restore benda. I guess everybody would want to just remove some people in their life..sebab tak nak ingat pun pasal diorang.. tapi tak yah nak kejam sangat la eh! :p 

Pernah tak rasa macam tak dihargai?

• Dalam segala benda yang korang buat, dok perah otak kemain.. tapi at the end of the day orang tu cakap Thanks pun nan hado.. macamana? Lagi lagi bila kita betungkus lumus buat semua benda.. tapi sikit pun pun orang tak aknowledge... kenapa ek? dunia hari ni memang macam tu eh concept? Selfish manjang? 

Bila difikirkan balik, I believe Allah ada sebab kenapa kita diuji kan... Nak mengamuk pun tak guna.. kena live life the best la... Macam as for me, I guess i'm too comfortable in my comfort zone.. it's time for me to get new challenges.. and pasal orang orang yang i nak hapuskan tu.. jangan la pikir I kejam sangat.. takde la sampai nak cubit, selekeh atau letak kerengga kat dalam kereta diorang kann *muahaha.. gelak kejam*.. tapi I percaya, apa yang terjadi dah pun ditentukan oleh Allah SWT kan? :) Apa pun yang berlaku, I am still me. Biar orang buat kita, jangan kta buat orang.. hokayh? 

And yes.. bila perkara macam ni jadi... takde apa lagi yang possible... banyakkan berzikir... tak perlu masa 2 bulan cuti  untuk muhasabah diri, cukup sekadar beristighfar banyak banyak, In Sha Allah, hati akan tenang sikit kan? :) 

Okay la, kan i dah cakap... post ni panjang... hehehe... sorry, jika you olls rasa tak patut.. tapi suka aku la kan.. blog aku kot :p 

Confessions on Pregnancy: Of Instinct and Reality

Asssalamualaikum Readers! 

This time around, since I'm in the category of Trying To Conceive (TTC), mari kita mengupas topik pasal kehamilan... Of course, once you are married.. secara lahiriah akan ada instinct untuk ada anak sendiri.. I guess it's more like every girl's dream kan? 

Well, the reality is.. kita memang kena banyak usaha jika kita nak zuriat.. tapi semua ketentuan tu terletak pada tangan Allah SWT... macam dalam ayat ayat drama, kita merancang, Allah menentukan...

So, I have to admit that I'm under Syok Sendiri... yes, I tend to always read what's on Google regarding pregnancy - ye la, elok kan nak tambah pengetahuan? Tapi tu la, as I read and read, I become so obsessed towards it... You know, like waiting and counting ovulation days, pastu bila period datang.. menangis like there's no tomorrow... And of course la, bila dah menangis bagai... sang suami la kesian..dah la perangai isteri pelik pelik, pastu nak nangis bagai.. kan dah susah nak handle tu..ish ish, saya ni teruk betul :p ... hehe!

I know that to conceive is such a beautiful process, and to be a mom is just an indescribable experience that everybody wishes to have.. Tapi I realised the fact that I am so into it.. *sometimes siap nangis beria ria baca orang punya pengalaman pregnant - aku sangat dramadiva kan?*... And at the end of the day I realised the fact that, this is not helping me much but to just demotivated me... Sebab ye la, I will always hope to have the Mini Me and Haffby dalam perut.. 

I guess I learned that I have to take a chill pill and relax gitu kan? Sebab ramai orang cakap, kalau panik panik sedunia ni, memang susah sikit nak dapat.. Hurmm, the thing is.. waiting is such an unbearable agony * tengok tu... baru nak pikir positif dah pikir bebukan macam ni*! plssssss lahh Sarah Yasmin Azizan!! 

Oleh sebab itu, I made a vow to myself not to get so obses dengan all this pregnancy reading... kena ingat, kita merancang, Allah SWT menentukan.. Aminnn!!

p/s: Please doakan jugak eh  >.< 

Dari benang and yellow ruler

Yada yada yada....

something like this la :)

When I was younger (*sekarang lagi muda*), I always took my grandmother's thread - of course secretly lah, and made it my konon konon Kapur as I always play pretend "Cikgu cikgu"... with whom? Of course la dengan anak patung, teddy bear and sometimes our pet cat... I don't know why, but I always have this so called interest at school looking and observing how teacher's taught at school... macam best kan sebab lain cikgu, lain ragam.... Oh ya, bila wujudnya dua orang adik yang comel, akak pun terpaksa la "upgrade" sikit lakonan jadi macam guru besar or paling kurang pun guru disiplin.. Lagi lagi kalau pergi bookshop, perkara yang harus dibeli ---> pembaris warna kuning...hahaah! bajet nak rotan je kan... haihhh... drama queen forever je aku ni... 

Sebijik yang ni, tapi yang panjang sikit.. baru la guru disiplin  :D

Anyway, as I grow up, I realised the fact that I always adore semua, ha meh I tulis besar sikit.. SEMUA cikgu Bahasa Inggeris I... I just feel like their classes are interesting, boleh cakap ala ala bahasa Backstreet boys dan tidak juga daku lupakan Westlife (*yang aku menangis bagai nak gila nak pergi concert dia masa Darjah 6 - kalau dah namanya Drama Queen, of course mama I tewas...hehehe*)... 

So, because of the observation, the play pretend sessions, the interest in language, I develop this passion of becoming one of the teachers who is able to motivate other to learn and love the language itself.. ya, some people tend to say "Ini semua poyo", but seriously, I can tell that not many teachers can motivate others tau... it requires patience and determination... 

Jadi, si drama queen ni pun further study in TESL - and Alhamdulillah, during my practicum I got a school with fantastic kids and loving they are.. Frankly, I am missing them so much bagai pungguk rindukan bulan...Sebabnya, I managed to develop confidence and love towards the career that I'm in and also my sayang-ness towards the students... bila masa berlalu, oh my..how besar they are now and they grow beautifully... 

So you see, teaching tu bukan perkara yang senang ya abang/adik/kakak/... it requires high Iq macamana you wish to make it interesting kan.. Anyway, whatever that we are doing now, jangan pernah lupa siapa cikgu kita...because... cuba korang pikir balik..masa zaman sekaolah dulu, berapa jam spent kat sekolah? berapa jam je spent kat rumah? And how much has teachers contribute to us? Kalau you all perasan, they are the ones yang ajar kita macam macam.. oh my, thanks teachers. :) 

Of Needing and Craving..

Most of us might not be aware of things that we crave for and things that we need in our life...

As for most of us, i can say that we don't really appreciate what we have until it's gone..maybe it's due to the greediness in each and everyone of us.. Miahahah :)

It's common that we always want more than what we have without realising the fact that god has fated things for us.. :)

I, myself have always been having this contemplated feelings that i always got confused with the things that i shall be prioritised..

Well, as a start, we shall begin with having the pen n the paper- so that things are more organised as no matter how smart we are, we are just human and we tend to forget things around us, isn't that so? :)

So,let's just not wait for the difference.. Make the differences and you'll be amazed that slowly, you will get the chance to know how to differentiate things that you want, or things that you need- like super duper reallllyyyyy need ;)

Well, 'till my next entry.. Challlooo!