Goodbye is not the end of Everything..

Nyeh, bear in mind that this is going to be a super long post. ( I think la) 

Okay.. I still remember the day that Fuad *the HR admin* called for an interview as a Secretary. Masa tu I kat Bangkok. Masa kat telepon, buat jer suara mcm excited tahap best sebab dapat interview *nah, ahkok bagi tips mcmana nak menangkan hati orang orang kompeni baru saat diorang call interview lagi* lol!

But as soon as I letak je telepon, masa tu the whole family of mine nak bersiap pergi Cha Tuk Chak *of kos la kiah tak pernah dengar kalau sibuk carik dekat map Mesia. Kan tadi dah cakap dekat Bangkok*.. So, I looked at my husband and cakap i dapat interview.. Hasben i memang suweet sebab apa apa interview yang i dapat dia akan happy tak ingat dunia punya.. But then i cakap.. "This interview is meant for secretary la b"... Hurm, dia sense masa tu I macam being a so diva tak bersyukur sebab weh, sekurang kurangnya ado la jugak orang call kau for interview ye dak?

Isu ni sampai buat topik perbincangan kat restoran di Bangkok ok? Kellas kann? And true enough... My parents said i should go for it, in regards that they know i can do it, and they also state that it's nit easy to find a job ayy... Jadi, that's it - berbekalkan semangat dari suami dan ibu bapa, mak went for the interview...

I memang ada masalah adrenaline rush bila pergi interview... I can be sitting still and I akan rasa macam nak berboooooorak je. Masalah dia skrang, siapa nak interview siapa ni? Lol... Siap ada budak cakap kat I lagi "Semoga Pn Yasmin dapat la job ni.. Kitorang pun naik pening nak carik orang lagi.. Asyik kena reject je" wow!! Itu lagi la buat gua cuak babe!

Tapi dengan kuasa Allah, after being interviewed - basically more like a conversation between me and the boss, petang tu jugak I got the job :) Alhamdulillah... And yes,I started my first day of work on the 27th May 2013...

Pengalaman kerja tu memang best sebab I have never been a secretary before you see.. So, this is a truly new experience for me.. I managed to get the experience of working in a corporate line and I just have to admit it that it's far different from the education line - which akok memang sentiasa merindui :)

I gained much experience, working with lotsa people around me with many characteristics that I can never have time to really go through one by one..

Above all, tak sikit pun I menyesal kerja dekat situ, walaupun I have to bangun pagi.. Minyak kereta dari Putrajaya ke Bukit Kiara ko jangan tanya la berapa kan! :) 

Whatever it is, much much thanks to everyone there for the tunjuk ajar, and sometimes tunjuk pandai ans tunjuk bagus pun ada. Hahaha. But screw that all. Above all, i had fun! 

But, remember la.. When the job is not meant for you, don't be sad. Semua dalam dunia ni kepunyaan Allah. Usaha, percaya dan tawakkal yang Allah dah rancang segala galanye :) 

This is a definite COMEBACK

Hi and Salam Semua :)

Yes, ye, sahih, toyyib.. Memang I dah lama gila tak update blog.. Banyak je sebab musabab yang lead me to just keep quiet tapi lebih banyak pok pek kat Twitter.. Ala, sebab twitter kan u just type what you feel and then tadaaa Tweet! Pastu bila baca balik , gelak sengsorang sambil terpikir *Entah senget ke apa meroyan kat Twitter*

Anyway anyhow anywhere, dengan ini saya isytiharkan penambahan berat badan yang mendadak seperti badak ye.. No no no, sila jangan jump to conclusion yang saya berbadan dua.. Buat masa ni saya velum berbadan dua namun saya hanya lah mengdua kali gandakan badan saya atas penambahan lemak yang sentiasa nak dekat dengan I olls. Sebenarnya malu jugak Akok Min sebab beria ia masa lunch dulu pergi gym.. Hasilnya?.. Haaaa, terus aku terperanjat ala ala muka watak pelakon Sinetron Indonesia yang scene terkejut/ suspen.. *kan ke muka dia terkejut tu macam 5 saat pause with style gitttew!*

Well, apart from that, my contract just ended recently... Yes, they refused to renew my contract, but who am I untuk pertikaikan? There must be reasons that support this.. I akur, maybe I  am the one yang not performing well, or not really familiar to the job scope... Alah, takpe.. Yang penting dah timba pengalaman and most of all - I have tried my best kan. Jadi, moh ler kita berhijrah ke tempat baru yeee :) sedih tu memang la sedih, tapi nak buek cemano? Hehe!

Dari berat badan ke hilang kerja ke majlis kahwin... Aah, Alhamdulillah that my cousin and a good friend if mine dah pun selamat diijabkabulkan.. Biasa la akak, kalau bab bab nikah ni feeling dia lebih sikit.. As such, ter ngalir jugak lai air mata :) congratulations lovebirds!! To all of you yang ada Instagram, haaa.. Cariklah #Qismi :)

Oh yes! I am a class away to finish my first sem for my Masters programme... Cepaatnye masa berlalu dan berlegar kan? Haih rasa macam baru je semalam mula class!!

Anak? Zuriat? Bukan kami tak usaha.. Namun husband and I percaya that ni semua kat tangan Allah... why choose to stress yourself kan? :)!

Well,until then. I will totally update more :)

Much lalaLove,

Yasmin

Tunggu•

Yeap. Will activate my blogging mode soon. Soon baby soon :) 

What You Actually Need To Feel

Ahlan Wasahlan!
It's 2.30 am! what???

As mentioned in the previous post, I have been doing much monologue session - thinking about many things...it could begin with the field that i'm in now when it comes to my career world, my responsibilities as woman, my situation in any zone that I could ever be.. seriously, where do I actually need to be now?

Sometimes, being a human this is basically a normal thing that you tend to be doing... REFLECT... yes, that's the verb that we're focusing here... in a way, I always have this habit of reflecting things... to make me aware and be stay conscious and focus to the exact intentions of doing so..

*nampak sangat Saka Omputih dah masuk sebab nak speaking gaban pepagi buta ni*

So, yes... reflect... kiranya recently I've been doing much reflection... thinking about have I did my best for my parents? for my husband? for my siblings? for my friends? for my company?

Yes, benda macam ni matters to me sebab I don't want to leave this world without accomplishing what I supposed to be doing.. Kelemahan? Yes semua orang ada kelemahan, and I tidak terkecuali.. begitu juga dengan diri ku yang banyak juga kelemahan...

Kita akan rasa gembira bila orang yang kita sayang gembira,

Kita turut bersedih bila orang yang kita sayang berduka,

Namun, siapa yang benar faham dengan perasaan kita yang sedang berduka lara?

Siapa yang dapat membaca isi hati yang tidah pernah terluah pada sesiapa? 

Especially when you have tried your best - well at least you sendiri can tell that you went crazy and nuts in order to do things - but still, ada yang tak cukup... maybe sebab expectation orang?

Tapi sampai bila? Kenapa kita susah nak cakap no? Sesakit mana pun kita, kita tabah,,.. kalis peluru dengan segala tohmahan, cacian... tapi... soalannya, sampai bila?

Hingga kini, I have no idea about all the SHIPS that have been troubling one's life... Friendship? Relationship? Battle Ship? What are all these?

I don't have clearer view on what am I feeling now taking me to...  It hurts the most when we hear people say things that they barely know and see our effort, but at the end of the day - kita jugak ditujah... is this really fair?

Well, this has nothing to do with anyone... It's just that... referring to what I've been mentioning - always reflecting...

Serious, i'm sorry to all of you who have known me.. who think that I'm just a clown who makes people laugh and laugh together with you, but what makes me different than you right? I'm  a human.. I deserve respect as you deserve. I can be happy as you can. I am a dreamer as you are. So, what's the major difference now between us?

This post has nothing to do with other people, it's me. Again, I'm reflecting.


Don't you think reflection is good?

So.. what should I really feel now...