Hello October!

Dearest Blog, 

Alhamdulillah for things that happened in my life... 

Above all the things that happened, I must say that not ALL was good either EVERYTHING was 't ever bad, but I am sure enough that all things happened taught me lessons in ways that I couldn't imagine,ever! 

I am grateful that throughout the journey of life, I have such strong support systems that evolves around me which I think everyone needs as to keep moving forward and plan for a better future, for you and your loved ones. 

Not going to rant and share too details here but I must say that everybody in this world will go through such phase that truly challenges your capability as a whole -- in a way, wanting you to think out of the box, requiring you to be extra patient, remain calm and one thing for sure -->  deciding what's best for your life which now, is not only for myself.. but for my kids and for everyone around me too!

Sometimes, challenges in life also make you learn so much things... such as:-

• Forgive and Learn to Forget : At times, when you expect too much of a happy ending towards everything, you tend to forget that you are in a real-world situation which obstacles occur, and there comes your decision making moment. As for me, this might sound cliche, but I learned that it's best to forgive for a more serenity life, as well as learn and try to forget what hurts you especially when you know those are the things that have been conquering your fear to move on... 
• Silence is gold : It's mostly recommended to talk or share with the trusted individuals regarding your concerns, worries or doubts... but at times also, it is definitely okay to just remain silence. Silence is gold--> in a way that when we remain quiet, we are actually giving room for us to fix things. letting the other side to 'cool down', and sometimes leaving other people ponder and wonder which leads to the next point:
• Bid farewell to what people think of you: Yeap, true. In this life, it is never easy to win everyone's heart because no matter how you tried, initially there will be dissatisfaction among people around you... at the end of the day, you gotta ask yourself... what's the purpose of your living? As for me, I really love and adore to see people succeed, happy and healthy... but to the extend that sometimes I hurt myself more than anyone could ever imagine... why? because I cared tooooo much about what people have to say about me... and soon, i learnt that:
• LOVE YOURSELF, FIRST before you could ever love anyone else. I learnt that is is so much important to take care of ourself, love our body and be careful in selecting food for our body. I mean like.. hello? I have two soldiers that I have to chase, play and spend time with.. why would I want to be unhealthy and surround myself with negative thoughts?

Hmm... So you see, through out my silence.. i have learnt a lot.. and guess what? I am back to rant here often! Watch this space :) 

Please Know...

Dear Boys,
At present, both of you are in your dreamland... Raqeeb, you might be in your dreamland thinking about saving the world with either being a Spiderman or Venom, and Adik, probably you are in your dreamland full of yummy food, especially nasi and ice cream to accompany you till your next feed.. :)

I have just settled with my thesis amendment... and here I am sleepy, but hands are too itchy to be sharing stuffs here... hence, this came out instantly and i thought, why not share it here?

Please Know... 

To my boys,  
I know that sometimes I had to neglect your cries. 
I know that there are times that I had to Say NO despite of your tears running down your cheek, 
I know that most of the times you boys were just doing things what other kids do -->To have the parents attention, 
Please know that one thing for sure, I wake up every day to give my very best for you :D


Wildan and Wafiy, 
There are days that we laughed so hard, 
There are moments of testing you and testing I, 
There are times that I threatened you to call the police and play fake police siren from youtube, 
There are times that I said enough and stop Adik from eating when his mouth is full of food yet he still insists as if there is no tomorrow, 
Please know that deep inside, I love you both and these moments are the ones that your dad and I will cherish forever and for always :)

Wildan and Wafiy, 
You'll play together, 
You'll cry together, 
You'll laugh together. 
You'll be the best of friends always, 
Please know that nothing is happier  for me and Abi other than to know that both of you have each other's back to lean, to cry, to laugh and to support each other 

Wildan and Wafiy,
One is 3, One is 1,
Such long journey to go, 
More memories are to be created, 
Please know that I am so ever thankful for both of you to be sent as a gift by Allah :) 


Love,
Bonda@Mama
12/5/2018
0133am

Ini Kalilah!

Assalamualaikum and salam sejahtera, salam muhibbah!

Don't get me wrong, the topic for this entry has nothing to do with our PRU14 in less than how many hours ni.. frankly, I just settled with my lesson plans amendment for my friend to help me with my data collection... seriously I wish I can submit my thesis ASAP.. but kenapa la kengkadang terasa diriku bagaikan siput oink oink ni.... selooow gila wei!

Now that I have two sonshines with me... never an easy task, people always give you that 'Bestnya jadi Mak!", "Eh, dah dua dah anak?", "Wah untung lah anak anak you sebab you are always with them (Alhamdulillah), orang lain sibuk bekerja", and lebih drastic "Cecepat la plan for baby girl plak?" <----- okay yang last ni, kakming rasa macam *bunyi cengkerik*

Tau tak jadi housewife ni ibaratkan orang yang selalu on call, tapi takde AL... orang yang akan sentiasa standby dan takde MC... hahahaha! and yang paling sendu...waktu tidur mu ke laut dan akan sentiasa terkorban...  huwa huwa huwa...

But, there is nothing much to complain.. PENAT...yes talking about PENAT, who doesn't? Cakap dengan kakming, siapa yang tak pernah pernat dalam dunia ni? But life goes on la ek... at the end of the day pun you will actually sleep with more smiles thinking that your sonshines and hubs are in safe hands gitew... walaaaaaauuuu bilik mcm kapal karam dek mainan yang jarang akan tersusun rapi sebab bila kemas je sepah kemas je sepah,, tapi takpe, kakming layankan je sebab sel sel otak anak anak sedang berhubung.. miumiumiu

The reason why I am back here,ranting and babbling is that I think I have too many things to share here, and I will not want to miss to update anything..korang tau tak my first son can talk now, added with extra akai dok adaaaaaaaaa jerrwh benda nak jawap,,,seperti bila kita hug dia kuat kuat, dia sudah berani kata "Mama, you BIG lah", atau bila kita dah selesai masak, dengan selamba comel nya dia akan cakap sambil tutup hidung "Mama, go mandi now, you busuk!".. habis takkan nak marah kalau dia cakap benda yang betul? Belum lagi part dia mintak kita makanan sebab nak feed mainan dia.. *urut kepala pakai minyak cap kapak jap*

Itu baru yang umur 3 tahun,,,umur 1 tahun ni aper cerita plak? Harus lah ikut idola... abang dia la!

Haih, very soon I shall start working again after how many years duduk kat rumah. I am nervous, and at the same time I am happy too... but seriously.... leaving these sonshines of mine for a few hours can make me go gaga kejap okay...but as my hubs and dad always said.. "It takes time!"... hehe! nantikan post seterusnya hokeh! :D

They are the ones who give me so much colours in life, other than bapak diorang :p

MomMe Time?

Hey there... 

As i said earlier... i wished  i could consistently rant here because you know why? no matter how perfect your life is, you still need somebody to share and to talk to... and in my case,i choose to express it here! hahah

I consider writing here as having some ME time. yes, ME time! ME time is actually having to have you spend your time doing what YOU like! When it comes to ME time... I frankly envy those who are single, or even working moms because no matter what... you managed to have your ME time... eh, i bukan benci..cumanya macam ala ala eh syoknya korang... ya maybe some moms might think that i'm creepy sebab i have the opportunity to stay at home and play with the kids while some moms have to spend their 8 to 5 pm daily at the office.. but on a brighter side mommies who work, you at least have the chances to wake up, dress up, lunch with your friends or even if you are lucky you can join ur husband kalau workplace dekat and so on.. while us? the stay-at-home mom (SAHM) have to just deal with laundry, cooking, feeding and playing with the baby that actually don't stop at 5pm... truth be told, i salute those working moms who still handle housechores after office hours..korang memang power..kalau bagi kat i...memang tora tora la jawapnyaaa...

So..yes.. now.. I have two boys who are happily growing up and have no idea how exhausted, tiring yet meaningful their mom was and currently... and for me to have a ME time to macam waiting for a miracle to happen ok!

I'll tell you why!

MAKAN

Before Kahwin / Masa Kerja (BKMK): I enjoyed going out for lunch with my colleagues, sanggup jalan jauh jauh as to explore food and to isi perut.. panas terik pun aku redah ok...kalau rajin, hujung minggu mesti je rajin nak bukak buku resepi and masak itu ini...busuk busuk pun mesti prepare special breakfast for hubs... 

Lepas Ada Anak (LAA): kau nak makan tu ibaratkan kau kena tunggu vip semua settle down tau kat conference atau event yang kau anjurkan... sebab sekarang ni you are talking about two kids,two ok! so if satu dah bangun, satu lagi tido.. then if satu tu teman aku makan kat bawah, yang lagi sorang akan meraung macam kalah bola sepak untuk kau datang and dukung dia (selalunya si Abang lagi over dari Adek).. so bila kau dapat chance untuk makan, kau akan LAHAP.. bukan makan dah... hahaha...ok, buruk lantak? ha...besok dah jadi housewife n a mother tahu la kome!

MANDI

BKMK: Come on lah... you have your own sweet time to mandi, buat concert bagai dalam toilet...boleh main pilih shampoo apa nak pakai, sabun tu jenis sabun buku ke sabun foam ke atau liquid ke...eh ada masa lebih why not scrub? atau fefeeling bawah air panas tu gitu kan..sambil lukis lukis kat cermin guna jari sebab adanya wap dari air panas tu ye dak? cakap je...nak mandi pakai bau stoberi, bluberi, peach eh segala la boleh..takde siapa akan stop...busuk busuk pun 20 minit kau sorang je kannn dalam tu...

LAA: Cerita dia...kalau kau nak enjoy mandi mcm BKMK, kau kena make sure kau bangun awal..lepas subuh atau sebelum subuh tu je kau dah mandi bersuriram ram ram dalam toilet.. kalau tak nanti masa kau mandi nanti ada entiti ketuk pintu bilik kau, pastu bila kau baru je nak layan air panas, kau terdengar si kecik nangihhhhh...time for susu BOnda!!!! haa...pastu bab bau bau sabun ni,,,apa boleh capai je der..pernah aku shower and shampoo pakai Pureen Kids' Head to Toe Apple..kau mampu? waktu aku mandi: Kalau lepas 10 minit tu memang aku dah bersyukur habis la...nak mandi lelama kena tunggu hubs balik after 6pm..dia leh tengokkan bebudak ni...

SHOPPING

BKMK:Dunia ini ana yang punya...caakap je nak apa...ambik, bayor. kalau nak tatap produk lelama kat Watsons or Guardian pun takpe...tu memang hobi sampinganku... hahaha

LAA: Kau jangan berangan derrrrr.... kau beli apa yg patut je... sebab apa anak anak dah ikut...kejap ada la budak kata nak ni..nak tu... kan? pastu lagi sorang merengek sebab tak nak duduk dalam stroller...ahhhhh kau rasaaaaaaaa??  selalunya aku macam fed up jadi aku buat list barang, and get hubs to buy... beserta dengan gambor sebenar kat Whatssap.. bukan apa! kaum lelaki ni jenis straight forward kau tau... kau suruh dia beli facial wash Safi misalnya..kalau kau tak bgtau dia yg mana, and dia bawak balik benda yg bukan kau nak...aku rasa memang boleh jadi World War tu! 

SOCIAL MEDIA
BKMK: Kau boleh je ada masa nak post selfie, atau bila pergi makan.. ada plak satu kegigihan dan inspirasi untuk tangkap gambar makanan yang kau makan..and paling sweet skali bila you always post pictures of you and hubs..indahnya doniaaaaa

LAA: hahahahaha....I dont even have much time to focus on my socmed as my eldest is always 'Mama Look, Mama Look' selagi aku tak pandang selagi tu la dia bunyi macam burung kakak tua...but nevermind la..he's always cute to me...heheh..and yes, gambar pun dah tentu la gambar anak anak yang kita post kan...sampai ada satu time tu..hubs kata 'Gambar kita dah tak banyak kan.'... haih,,,sayu pulok hati ni!


As for now rasanya ni je i can think of... banyak lagi sebenarnya... kalau ada masa aku sambung lagi okayyyyy :D

Yet i am glad that at least writing here is how i spend my ME time! Blessed! :D

Belated Raya Aidil Fitri 2017

Salams... 

It is now August and soon, Aidiladha is coming real soon! But here I am, updating my Raya 2017 moments with you here :D 

Well.. where should i start ye? Okay.. this year is to celebrate raya in Putrajaya as hello? follow the rotation ok? supaya aman makmur and nobody injured dengan any periuk belanga or mercun pop pop yang dibaling kerana tak puas hati nak rayo rumah mak sendiri..hahaha! 

As usual, when it's time to celebrate Raya in Putrajaya... we always have my MIL's siblings from Johor and Melaka to come over and celebrate with us here... I am so very much thankful because I love to have so many people celebrating raya..because ye lah RAYA kot! takkan nak sendu pintu kereta sedan sorang sorang kat tepi katil and dengar lagu raya thinking that it must be sedih when you can choose to be happy, kan? I mean.. life is about choices and making decisions... so choose lah happy..kenapa nak choose tak happy ye dak? :D 

So, this year... my hubs and his brothers requested for this kak min to prepare shell out dishes...haih...sebab kuasa viral kan...jadi akak pun menurut perintah la ye.. and i am glad that everyone enjoys it.. syukur, suka ok! :D 

Bila dah raya tu....dah semestinya nak tangkap gambar kan... so yes, my husband memang sejenis yang bila ramai orang baru lahhhh dia nak keluarkan kemera dia yang sebenarnya canggih but he prefers to simpan dibalik almari baju di hari hari biasa.. mampu jah? ha... dah member nak keluarkan kamera bagai... ahkak pun kena la posing.. bukan posing tapi plan and prepare la diri untuk posing.. :D 

For those who are close to me, i mean those who really know me, like pernah sembang

 and lepak and kira kenal lah (*kau ingat kau pemes ke tuan blog*), akan tahu yang I CANNOT WEAR MAKE UP! yes, i cannot! why? sebab keringat ku yang memang sekejap je boleh memenuhi aquarium 10litre... so akak rasa elok la i just dab some baby powder, eyeliner and lipbalm, or kalau nak glamour sikit.. letak la liptip... akak bukan tak pernah mencoba untuk menjadi seorang hijabista, tapi setiap kali percubaan akak, akan end up sebagai habislanak.. huhu 

So yes.. bila bergambar ni... memang seronok..tapi beb bila kau ada anak kecik...pergh...seronok dia beronok ronok sebab time tu la kau nak posing, time tu la anak kau tak nak let go botol dia .. time kau tengok kamera, time tu lah dia nangis nangis atau 'tertido'... and anak anak aku tak terkecuali dari benda ni semua ok.. 

Muka akak dah tak kuasa nak pujuk dah after attempt ke 10654759 belas juta kali suruh dia senyum :D 

Ha.. yang ni dah picture perfect...tapi...nampak tu?asal tu tudung tetibe tukar warna? KERINGAT!!!! haih

Tu bab bergambar.. and when it comes to food, you won't be enjoying much as asalkan makan je sebab you kena bersiap sedia nak p kejar anak u and at the same time you want to feed the baby.. :D

Haih,, whatever it is, this is going to be such memorable for me...and kids, when you grow up.. you will know that you guys have given me so much fun! :D 

So...here's a picture that would be appropriate la kan for the album :D Selamat Hari Raya from Us : Yasmin. Raqeeb, Rauf and Hafiz :D

I am back and...

Salam everyone...
Greetings and hello~

This has been way such hiatus for me to get back the groove and keep sharing here... other than procrastinating, I have to say that being a homemaker and a mom full time has stolen  most of my time there... things like laundry, cooking, feeding, playing with the boys (*yes, I have now 2 boys with me - the first one is 29 months-old while the youngest one is going to be 5 months old at the end of this month)..

Things have changed rapidly.. in a way that I had never had any thoughts thinking about how tough life would be to put away your career, your passion but to focus on your children and do what's best for them...and you never know you will be developing new things that you can never imagine developing!

At first I thought that it's not necessary for me to share what I experienced here but thinking about  how roller coaster my life is right now - well not to say later it will not be any more... i know, very well that this journey has just started.. i figure, "hey why not for me to share it here? Well, not only to those who follow my blog, but for MY kids.yes, they need to  know the many of colours they have contributed in my life and also my husband's".. 

Therefore... please watch this space for more ups and down adventures with me... and perhaps i just need to make it clear that this is my playground... so i write what i write la ok? don't be emo, don't be too judgemental.. like what old people always say... things happen for reasons, and never think that everyone who shares the same shoe has the same heart. eh?

:)

Love,
Min
#bondabebel

Raya 2016

Salam!

Yes, orang dah masuk bulan baru, even nak masuk Raya Haji dah soon but gatal nak update pasal Raya Aidilfitri 2016.

Our theme is YELLOW. Entah kenapa encik somi kata nak warna kuning? aku layankan aje lah....


One for the record. Oh ya, ARW tu tengah emo sebab gigi nak tumbuh sekali 2. Anak orang lain salam je orang dipagi raya, tapi anak aku dengan skema nye menampor semua orang yang nak carry dia atau even cuba dekat dengan dia... And ended siapa yang perlukan simen nak ratakan muka tu? Of course Bonda and Abi dia.. hahahah :D Takpe lah anak, nasib baik la orang faham... kalau tak idok ler kamu dapat duit raya ye!